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i dont know what's with life anymore.
it brings you on ups and downs with no warnings and no time to adjust.
when you look back, you wonder what a fool you were thinking that the hurdle you faced was tough.
it fact, it wasnt because it was a small hurdle which you over sensationalized.
but rather, the hurdles and trials and tribulations only get bigger.
all through the years, they seem like a rolling snowball, which grows in size and volume,
never halting to a stop, never getting any smaller.
its getting tough.
i feel more like a fool each day.
i feel more useless as time goes by.
i guess its starting to play tricks on my mind, heart and every other organ in my body.
i felt like a complete idiot.
nothing more, nothing less.
pouring out emotions on an ice cold surface.
just seeing it solidify in you freaking face.
just seeing it go to waste without a inch of care.
i'm starting to give up.
not on anyone.
not on anything.
but on myself.
i cant change to accommodate lives' problems.
yes i might be running away from it all.
but sometimes, the thought of it seems better.
-here it ends- | | |
| one day u drown yourself in misery,
and the next day u enjoy so much that u forget about the past days..
a rollercoaster ride. in simple terms. when your heart works faster than your mind,
that's when u run into problems.
that's when u make assumtions ahead of time
and see yourself fall eventually.
when people say "what goes around comes around",
dont take it lightly.
cos it is a truely true statement
that will haunt a non-believer. Anyway, well today was kinda good.
bought some stuff. had some time outside.
that was good enough for me. that's it! Thanks for today Lord!!
wish the days to come will be like this one! | | |
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It's undeniable
That we should be together
It's unbelievable
How i used to say that i'd fall never
The basis you need to know
If you don't know just how i feel
Then let me show you now
That i'm for real
If all things in time
Time will reveal
Yeah
One, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it's plain to see
That you're the only one for me
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever i believe my work is done
Then i start back at one
So incredible
The way things work themselves out
And all emotional, once you know what it's all about babe
And undesirable
For us to be apart
Never would have made it very far
Cause you know that you've got the keys to my heart
Cause
One, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it's plain to see
That you're the only one for me
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever i believe my work is done
Then i start back at one
Say farewell to the dark night
I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child
Whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life
Into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line
Just in the nick of time
One, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it's plain to see
That you're the only one for me
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever i believe my work is done
Then i start back at one
....i pray each day that it lasts forever!
goodnight | | |
| dont wish like writting in complete sentences.
well here's what's in my brains.
better write it down and get it out of my system.
tough to change-
stubborness rules the world-
tired, no energy, no heart-
told you before-
not speaking again, anymore-
end of road-
retreat,surrender-
less care, less love-
more than you do-
invisible-
insignificant-
transparent, feelingless-
giving in-
retard-
why continue for sake-
giving it up sucks-
...
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well it may seem meaningless to you out there.
but to me it spells out my thoughts.
only i would probably see it as a clear picture.
damn, what a negative end to a good week.
nevermind,
there are reasons.
bye.
may tomorrow be a better day.
for a better day means the world to me now.
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| results day today!
after reading Zong's blog, i feel so yuck&noob!
i dont think i even got one B grade. HAHA, sucks a lot.
But honestly, i'm happy with my improvement.
Passing 5 out of 6 subjects is a total relieve and achievement. Especially since i have been failing badly all year round.
I think many people in AD1 were disappointed with themselves. I was disappointed with my maths and i guess i got kinda complacent towards the exams. This kinda thing always happens to me!!
i am so happy that God has helped me through this tough exam time and has also helped all in AD1 to get advanced/promoted to JC2.
That should be the most important thing right.Its called PROMOTIONAL exams for a reason :) seeing a few people in their sorrow over their results made me realise how realistic retaining is.
I am just worried now that my CA marks may pull me down.
put according to Mr Woolhead's advise, they might most probably not retain me cos i passed promos.YAY! :)
still in that worried zone though.. Anyway i hate it when i see a friend in deep agony. Especially when its over a girl.
HAIIIZZZ
I totally understand why people dont move away or move on from hurtful thoughts and feelings.
I think that's our greatest barrier as humans. We are too stubborn at times and we remain stubborn cos we want to run life the way we see it.
Letting go is tough but at times its the best thing to do.
When we take a step back we see the clearer picture and its easier to make a decision from there..
Project Work Oral Presentation Prelim on Monday! We are DOOMEEDD!! 
i give you my all.
i dont expect anything in return.
i love you with my all.
and i hope you do love as well.
for all i need right now,
is for you to say that u need me.
That u need me more than ever.
cos i know that a moment without you
feels like a moment not meant to be! i love u and i am never going to leave.
no matter what. no matter who.
tell me i'm not the only one who is feeling this! | | |
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